BEING A BOOKWORMS FOR A WHILE

hi all, so in this new post i'm just gonna share about my activities around this week.

my life feels completely hectic, and just like a few days ago, it is full with study, tryout and test. but, im not gonna give up, i still fighting and trying so hard to study all the lessons. and FYI, starts from 4 days ago, my blackberry messanger has been turned off. i just want to consentrate to my school, national final exam, and also the college. i really want to enroll ITS so bad. and i will do anything for that. so guys, with all your kindness, please pray for me. :')

everyday i always like this, carry a lot of excercise paper

teenvogue + all of those excercise book is my newboyfriend since this month :)

here some inspirational movies i ever watch about education, you might be like it :

An Education

this movie is soo vintage, and soo audrey hepburn style. i love it so much! This movie taught me that education is very important for someone life.

and...

Monalisa Smile

have a great saturday! *ready to study*

being third grade

Being third grade is feel so hard right now, I have to take many responsibility for every step I choose. I also tired hear my dad reminds me that next year im not a High school student anymore, he said I have to stop hangout with my friends, and start thinking about my school for more. I know he just want the best for me, but… is that the best ways for me too ? I just want somebody cheer me up with a different ways which its more fun and exciting. No mall, No playing my life would be sooo horrible -..-

gratefull is the cure of anything

have you ever feel so lonely between the crowd of people? have you ever feel being ignored by everyone? have you ever feel that you never match with anybody in your life?

thats what i feel right now... i always ask myself "are you a good enough to be anyone friends?", and the answer is always NO. sometimes i feel mad about a little things that i shouldnt think about. sometimes i think everybody left and hate me. sometimes i feel envy to everyone who have somebody to love with. am i selfish? am i paranoid? or its just a feeling that everybody ever feel about? i just dont know, but the only thing that could cure me right now is feel gratefull for everything i have. without it, i'd be very sick hmmm...

honestly, if you could look my heart feel now is like that picture.